Chapter 1: Day 4

Me, Myself & Lies by Jennifer Rothschild

Chapter 1: Day 4

Today, tears came to my eyes as I read through the lesson. Jennifer asks me to describe worry. I begin to think about this and realize that worry is like a robber. It robs me of peace, tranquility, serenity, and productivity. When I worry, I take my eyes off God and lower them to myself. Worry is the opposite of belief and hope. A hopeful person does not worry.

I must meditate on God’s Word. Jennifer grabs my attention when she points out that the standard for my meditation is not what is acceptable to me, but what is acceptable to God. He sets the standard for what we should think about. God hears our every word, every heartbeat, and every thought. OK…I wonder how He feels when my mind becomes laden down with cares. While I am not currently in a season of worry, I lived in that pit last summer. My husband was laid off and I became worried. I worried, and worried, and worried—even though the school that laid him off paid very little and had planned to cut the teachers’ pay even lower. How foolish of me! In hindsight I see what a waste of time it was to spend my quiet moments worrying instead of praising God. I was encapsulated in worry.

Worry is like a bug that bites. It sucks your joy and depletes your energy. It makes you insecure and it creates bitterness. When you host the worry bug, it does not just stick onto you; it tends to suck on the people around you also. It drags down those who are around you. It hurts God’s heart when we worry. Psalm 94:19 says, “When my anxious thoughts multiply within me, Your consolations delight my soul.” Scripture assures us that God wants to console us when we become anxious. Anxious thoughts will come, but God wants to step in and give us hope and assurance.

Whatever you are facing, God wants to provide what you need for your situation. You must believe this. We must not be imprisoned by worry at all. I realized that my worry created insecurity within me. God is a God of security and whatever He has gifted you to do, and is telling you to do for Him, step out and do it. That is why I am going to blog my way throughout this study. I have always been afraid to step out and put my thoughts out there, so to speak. Why should I be? Why should you be? There is no need to fear when God is with you.

Let us meditate on truth:

Phil. 4:8 Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.

Phil. 4:6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.  7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

1Pet. 5:7 casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.

The Onion and Me

The onion is a culinary masterpiece when it comes to savory dishes. As far as I am concerned, all you need is an onion, some garlic, salt and pepper in order to cook any main course. Without the onion, your food will sink in the taste test. I use onions and garlic in almost all my dishes because I love the taste they add to roasted vegetables, fish, and poultry. In my home, the onion reigns supreme in the kitchen, and I am proud of it.

Onions are always on my grocery list. I want to make sure I am never without them. So, when I purchased some locally grown collards, I made sure I had onions with which to marry the two. I was excited to cook the greens, so I eagerly grabbed the biggest, most attractive onion from my onion basket to begin the exercise. The onion looked appealing. It was truly attractive with its large round body.  It had just the right hue and I was certain it was unblemished. I cut open the onion thinking it would surely do my greens justice, but when I sliced it in two, I was astonished to see that one side had blackness in the center. It had begun to rot. My mouth hung open and my eyes did a double take. “This can’t be true!” I thought. The onion had deceived me. It looked perfect on the outside, but the inside was far from it.

At that very moment, the Holy Spirit spoke to my heart and said, “Janet, if you don’t stay in my Word and follow me closely, you too will be like the onion.” I began to process the gentle exhortation and my heart nodded in agreement. If I do not maintain my prayer time, my quiet time in the Word, and my time in meditation, then I will function OK for a while; but I will not have the true stamina and depth that God wants me to have. I must be truly grounded if I want to be a woman after God’s own heart. As a teacher of God’s Word, I cannot be matter-of-fact about my inside—my heart. My heart condition is God’s utmost concern. My behavior is His priority. My walk is His testimony. I have to be true if I am going to be clean. Like the onion, I will deceive you if I do not yield to the Holy Spirit’s work consistently. My heart will be tainted and tarnished and dark without the light of Christ penetrating within.

Look around and you will see that it is easy to become laden down with the cares of the day: the cleaning, the washing, the ironing, the E-mails, the Facebook, the Twitter, the phone calls, the books to read, the friendships to maintain, the packages to mail, the pets to feed, the cars to wash, the yard to clean, the house to tidy, the husband to nourish, the children to feed…. Get the picture! It takes consistent prioritizing to make Christ the center of our every day. If He gets further and further down the To-do list, you fill find that your center—your heart—will become like the deceptive onion.  That does not happen overnight, but it will happen over time. May the layers of our being, be perforated with the love, grace, holiness, and purity of Almighty God. When peeled back, we should be like our Lord in every way.

A word from the Word

Therefore, prepare your minds for action, keep sober in spirit, fix your hope completely on the grace to be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ. As obedient children, do not be conformed to the former lusts which were yours in your ignorance, but like the Holy One who called you, be holy yourselves also in all your behavior; because it is written, “YOU SHALL BE HOLY, FOR I AM HOLY.” 1 Peter 1:13-16

Petition

Dear Lord, I have been like the onion at different points in my life and that is not my desire. I want to be true in the deep recesses of my heart. I want you to have access to the layers of my heart so you can search me and form me into your likeness. I want Christ to reign supreme in my life. Help me, Lord, to ascertain the power of Christ’s resurrection through the reading of His Word and daily confessions of who I am in Christ.

The Mercy of God

The mercy of God is breathtaking. It is one of the facets of Christianity that moves the Christian to humility toward God and toward those around him. When you take the time to assess God’s mercy in your life and in the lives of those you know, you cannot help but become quiet. Silence, most often, is a sign of contemplation and even sorrow. When you recognize that you would have been dead if God in His mercy had not chosen to draw you to Himself, you are left in utter silence. This silence is not one of sorrow per se, but one of gratitude and awareness. And the death of which I speak is not physical but spiritual. Spiritual death is worse than the former, because to be dead spiritually is to be separated from the Almighty God, the Maker of heaven and earth. Consider the fact that God has all power, is all knowing, and can do no wrong…and that He has taken the time to think about you, and stepped into your life, intercept what you were doing, and over time, draw your heart toward His. That is love.

The love that God has for you is incomprehensible because He had no reason to love you; you gave him no reason to, and moreover, you wanted nothing to do with Him. The only way you can love Him is because He has put that love into your heart to do so. God is love. Love originated with Him, comes from Him, and flows through Him to us. Because He loves us we can love others (1 John 4:7-8; Rom 5:8). God’s love and mercy dovetail to form grace. Grace is unearned favor. It is a gift that is given freely without any strings attached. It is purely altruistic. It is vast and worth shouting about. Since grace is so important in the life of every Christian, why is it that you and I are often reluctant to show it to others? Because we often forget what God has done for us. If we forget the good things that have come from His hand to ours, we will become cold and selfish. Do not allow that. Let us pray every day for God to give us hearts of grace, hearts of love, and hearts of mercy.

I see the mercy of God every day when I look around me. I recognized it this week when Charles and I decided to go walking. We started out walking but I soon suggested that we try to run instead. It had been months since I had the energy to sustain a long run. Gratitude flooded my heart and I immediately began to pray. We switched from running to walking and turned the rest of the walk into a prayer meeting. It occurred to me during my time of prayer, that it is absolutely foolish to hold on to a grudge of any sort. I came to that conclusion when I juxtaposed God’s mercy alongside my failures. God has been pleading with me to finish a certain project but it is very hard, and there are days when I have allowed other things to choke my time on this particular thing. This results in conviction and sometimes despair. I say, “God how am I supposed to do this with all the other things I have to do!” However, God has been merciful to me and keeps reminding me that He wants me to do this project that He is not going to change His mind. I thought about it and began to thank God. I then began to pray for some people who I do not pray for on a regular basis. I felt the power of the Holy Spirit like a heavy downpour of rain. No one could see the tears streaming down my face, because it was dark. I tasted God’s mercy on my lips once again, and nothing anyone could do at that moment could cause me to hate them. You and I have met unkindness face to face. We have been wronged many times over, and some of you have reason, and I mean good reason, to hate. But don’t do it. You see, as I embraced the ability to run but thought back to the days when health was a farfetched desire, I was overcome with thankfulness. When we think about all that God has done for us, the only thing that we can do, and should do, is to release anyone who might have wronged us. God’s grace and mercy are far too powerful to hold us captives of unforgiveness. We must embrace grace and give it. That is the only correct response. I have struggled with unforgiveness in my life, but more and more the Lord is allowing me to see Him, and so I am able to let go of past hurts that held me bound. This is a process, but we are so important to God, that He will take however long it takes, to make us like Himself. God wants us free, not bound. Christ’s death paid for our freedom, and we should not seek to hold others captive with our dogmatism that is often mere opinion and preference and biblically mandated. God is long suffering, patient, and merciful, and He wants us to grow into Christ-likeness. Be merciful to those whose growth you think is slow.

The mercy of God is like a long-sleeved, hooded overcoat that covers us all the way around. Consider that the overcoat has a hood that protects your head. The mercy of God protects us from the stinking thinking that we are prone toward. Our thoughts can be selfish, calculating, impure, and unjust. God’s mercy keeps us from pursuing the things that our mind lures us to concoct. The hood of the overcoat has a connecting cloth that covers our neck also. It is easy to become distracted and turn to the left when we should be looking forward. When we are tempted to turn back to the former sins we left behind, the mercy of God keeps us focused. When we lose focus and begin to stray to the left because what we see looks alluring, God’s mercy gently pulls us back onto the path and prods us in the right direction. When we veer to the right to pursue something that may in itself be good but may not be right for us at the time, God’s mercy nudges us back onto the road and moves us forward.

The back of the overcoat is like a brace or a strong support. When Satan tries to bring up your failures you can lean on God’s promises and rest in His grace. No matter how good you think you may have been, you had some darkness in your life. Yes, some people’s past is lurid, painful, and very sad, but God does not think of them any less than those whose past seems almost unblemished. All have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God (Rom 3:23), and all are dead in sin (Eph 2:1-3) without Christ’s resurrection power. So, when Satan tries to tell you that you are not worthy of being in the position that you are, do not believe him. When the Schemer tells you that people are not going to like you if they were to find out all the things you did in the past, do not listen. One young lady recently told me how an older Christian reacted when she shared something that she had done in the past and it broke my heart to see how snobbish some Christians are toward others. There are those in our churches who are quick to embrace newcomers and even quicker to discard them once they find out that the newcomer “has a past.” May that not be you. I have been attending church since I was a kid, and I have seen it over and over again, and I continue to see it. It is a sorry situation and it hurts my heart. Remember, God delights in using broken vessels. He doesn’t keep them broken. He simply takes what is broken, mends it, and begins to pour out of it. God uses people. He wants to use you, but Satan desires to accuse and misuse you. We must not allow ourselves to become a tool for him. He is our foe and we must resist him at every turn. God is able to give you the strength you need when you feel like giving up.

When we feel like giving up, we must trust God to guard our hearts. The front of the overcoat protects the chest area, which also houses your heart. God’s mercy covers your sinful heart and makes it pure. The heart is inherently deceitful and wicked (Jer 17:9), even for those pretty Christians who seem to have it all together. The heart, left to itself, will murder, tear down, and uproot what is planted—except for God’s quiet hand that quells it in its fury. When you are tempted to rush ahead of God and seize things that are not in His will for you; God’s mercy keeps your heart undivided. A divided heart is like half eaten cake presented to a couple at their wedding reception. That would be insulting to them and embarrassing to their guests. A divided heart is insulting to God (Jas 1:5-8). But God is greater than our heart (1 John 3:19-22). When we recognize what He has done for us and in us, we cannot serve Him half-heartedly. That is insipid to Him. He wants all of you and me.

Just as all of us belong to Him, He seeks to protect every part of our lives. The sleeves of the overcoat protect our arms. God’s mercy is stronger than our self-will. When you are tempted to pull your arms out of His, God hangs on to you. When you try to squirm like a worm out of His grasp, God’s mercy pulls your arms up under His like a lover does his beloved. God will not let go of you. Jesus says that he will lose none of his sheep (John 10:27-29). He will present all of us, intact, to the Father on that Day. There is a great Day coming when we shall see Him face to face, and we will bow before Him in utter obeisance and worship. I look forward to that day. But until then, let us encourage one another and hold each other’s hand. Let us pray for one another in fervency and sincerity. May God bless you and keep you. Thank you for praying for me.

God’s Sovereign Presence

Last month, I took the time to read through the book of Genesis. I should not have been surprised at the new things I saw in some of the chapters that I had read several times before. However, I was taken aback by how much I had missed in my prior readings. There were some things that caught my heart’s attention, and for several mornings I found myself in deep contemplation as I meditated upon various elements of Joseph’s life. At times I was moved to tears, other times my eyes widened as I thought about the scenario that threw this young Israelite into opposition from his brothers, into a land that was unknown to him, and among a people that had prejudices against him because he came from a line of shepherds (Gen 43:32; 46:34). Consider for a moment how you would feel if that were your life. What would you do if your family turned against you and sold you into slavery? Would you continue to trust God if you were in a country that was anything but godly? Would you choose to love the very people who treated you like you were unclean, simply because you looked different than they or because of your lowly job status? Let us examine the way Joseph handled himself in those situations, and let us allow God to open our eyes to His love and grace.

The grace of God reached down into Joseph’s heart and life in the most extraordinary way, as it has reached into your heart and mine. Joseph did not use the best tact when he told his brothers about his dreams, and he suffered for it. In his first dream his brothers’ sheaves gathered around his sheaf and bowed down to it; next, the sun, moon, and eleven stars bowed down to him also (Gen 37). This caused his brothers much consternation and they were not happy. The fact that they were aware that Jacob, their father, had a deeper love for Joseph (Gen 37:3-4) only made matters worse. It was under those circumstances that Joseph was kidnapped by his brothers and sold into slavery. Being sold into slavery was the lesser of the two evils; the other was death. His older brother, Reuben, had intended to secretly rescue Joseph, but it is highly unlikely that the others would have allowed this.

Fast forward to Potiphar’s palace where Joseph worked, and as God would have it, has now  gained Potiphar’s admiration and respect, which then led to Joseph being promoted to Potiphar’s personal attendant and household manager. Why? Because the LORD was with him. The word LORD there refers to God’s personal name (cf. Exod 3:14). God was with Joseph. The LORD was with Joseph when he was sold to the slave traders. The LORD was with Joseph when he was working for Potiphar. The LORD was with Joseph when Potiphar’s wife lied about him. The LORD was with Joseph during his time in prison. The LORD was with Joseph when he revealed the dreams of the cupbearer and the baker. The LORD was with Joseph when he stood before Pharaoh and explained his dreams. The LORD was with Joseph when he devised a plan to store up enough food for the famine to come. The LORD was with Joseph when Pharaoh gave his relatives a personal invitation to make Egypt their home, provided wagons for their move, and guaranteed them the best that Egypt had to offer. The LORD was with Joseph when he settled his relatives in the land of Goshen and Pharaoh approved of it. The LORD was with Joseph when he requested leave of office to go and bury his father in Canaan and Pharaoh not only approved it, but made available the senior courtiers of his household, the senior officials of the land, chariots and horsemen, to accompany Joseph. My friend, it was no coincidence that Joseph was sold to an Egyptian and not someone else. God had enacted a divine plan to provide for His people.

Have you noticed that your life has taken twists and turns that you never, in your wildest dreams would have thought possible? Have you noticed that God has been there all along, setting things in order, bringing people in and out of your life to help you? Do you know that nothing that happens to you is out of God’s ability to control? God desires to teach us lessons, lessons that will move us to deeper dependence on Him. His ultimate goal for Joseph was that His grace and His glory would be made manifest. His ultimate goal is the same for you and me today.

There are three messages that I see in the story of Joseph’s life. I see the message of hope, the message of deliverance, and the message of forgiveness. When Joseph was thrown into that caravan of slave traders, he must have prayed. When he was sold to Potiphar, Joseph must have placed his trust in Yahweh for safekeeping and protection. When Joseph began working in Potiphar’s house and saw all the fine things and the delicious foods, he kept honesty at the forefront of all he did. I submit to you that Joseph did not have a pity party or go into deep depression. He decided to hope in God and God delivered him in a great way. Joseph’s deliverance began in Potiphar’s palace even though it was partly thwarted by his imprisonment. But God delivered Joseph out of prison also. I see irony and poetic justice in the fact that God allowed Joseph to have leadership over people who would not have chosen him. God delivered the slave boy into Pharaoh’s inner circle and placed him over people who detested his heritage. For whatever the reasons, Egyptians did not eat with Jews, but Joseph, who was Jewish, was Pharaoh’s right hand man and his background did not prevent him from excelling. God can take you anywhere He wants you to go and He can cause you to find favor with whomever he deems (Prov 21:1). God turned Pharaoh’s heart toward Joseph and Joseph turned his heart toward God. He accepted the challenges and promotions with grace and gratitude. He did not allow his background to impede his progress among the Egyptians. Don’t let your past get in the way of your future.

I also believe that he did not allow himself to be overcome with bitterness and unforgiveness. Unforgiveness breeds bitterness, and had he fostered both, they would have hindered his ability to hope, progress, and excel. God cannot do the things He wants to do in us and for us if we hold on to bitterness and anger. No matter what has been done to you, give it to the Lord. Let Him soothe you, and in time He will mend the brokenness. Letting go of unforgiveness is a matter of our will. There are some things that our flesh will not do, but we can determine that we are going to do it just because it is what God says we should do. If the Word declares it, do it! When we begin to take God at His word, He will make even our enemies become peaceful toward us (Prov 16:7). Joseph must have thought of his dear father and longed to see him. Tears must have come to his eyes when he remembered how his brothers pulled his coat off of him, taunted and jeered him, and handled him like an enemy rather than like a brother. Yet, I believe he forgave them in his heart. After Jacob was buried, his brothers were worried about their future but Joseph assured them that they were forgiven (Gen 50:15-21). When the bad memories come into your mind, cry if you want to, but don’t let the thoughts linger. Turn them over to God and thank Him for the way He has provided for you and continues to keep you. Thankfulness will always drive away bitterness.

We get to see Joseph’s life in one big sweep, but for him, it was a daily trust in Yahweh with no knowledge of how things were going to turn out. Joseph did what was right although he was among strangers. No matter where you or I find ourselves in the future, let us do what is right. If your house burns down tonight, trust God. If you lose your job because someone lied about you, trust God. If your family speaks ill of you and puts you down, trust God. When you trust God and do what is right, He will always deliver you. The Psalmist David attests to that. Use the right words even when you are being mishandled. Maintain your gaze on the One who keeps heaven and earth. He will not allow your foot to be shaken nor make you a laughing stock to the ungodly. Do not worry about the limitations that people may try to place on you. Get a grasp of how God has gifted you, recognize who you are in Christ, and follow Him with all your heart.

Daniel B Towner wrote: Anywhere with Jesus I can safely go, anywhere He leads me in this world below; anywhere without Him dearest joys would fade, anywhere with Jesus I am not afraid. Anywhere with Jesus I am not alone, other friends may fail me—He is still my own, Tho His hand may lead me over dreary ways, anywhere with Jesus is a house of praise.

May that be true for you and me for the rest of our lives.

Assessing the New Year

Happy New Year to you! Each day gives us the opportunity to start over, the ability to accomplish something different from the day before, and the possibility to make right what was wrong from the day before. The same things are true with the start of each year, and we are able to begin afresh on a grander scale. While some people are suspect about resolutions and refrain from even using the word, I think it is helpful to take the time to assess the past and make goals for the future. Assessment of any kind takes time, introspection, and objectivity.

What areas should we assess? Every Christian must assess her walk with God. By “walk” I mean communication, intimacy, affection toward, and obedience to God. Each day we walk with Him and though the walk may not always consist of the aforementioned qualities, it is nonetheless “your walk.” We must assess our time management. We must determine if we are out of balance with the important things in our lives. We have to determine what is important to us, and the things that are none-negotiable. Every woman must have things with which they do not compromise. I think our time with God, taking care of ourselves, upkeep of our homes, maintaining important relationships, investing in someone else, and pursuing your goals, should be a part of what we all do this year.

If we do not spend time reading God’s Word and praying, we will not have a good relationship with God. We must take the time to make the time with our Lord, a top priority. Since we are His flowers and as flowers, we must bloom, we need His light in us. We must meditate on His word so that we can hold our tongue when we are angry, have wisdom in knowing how to handle the difficult situations that we will face, and have the right word to encourage another sister in her time of need.

People are watching you. If you don’t believe me, do something that is not good, and see how many people would chide you. Don’t risk that, just trust me—someone is always watching you. So, with that in mind, take the time to dress nicely and look presentable. The unbeliever will have a hard time hearing your message if you look like a broken down barn. Every woman is beautiful and special in her own way, so fix up your self. Part of taking care of yourself includes exercise (even a walk around your block every day), proper nutrition, and stress relief. Do you know that if you are stressed out your body will show it. Stress relief can include prayer, time with a friend, a walk, sitting in your backyard just looking at God’s creation, and even a stroll in the park. I do not recommend eating and going to the mall for stress relief☺. Those are too tempting and could get us into trouble.

My mother always told me to keep my surrounding clean. She once said, “Janet, even if you live under a tree, sweep underneath it and keep it clean.” I was about ten years old, but I never forgot that. Keep your home presentable. If it’s even the living area and bathroom, keep them clean in case someone pops in unexpectedly. I once asked to use someone’s bathroom and I will not tell you what was sitting in the toilet when I went inside. It was disgusting. If you have kids, make them clean up. Use them to help you (like my mom did me) and you will be teaching them invaluable skills in the process. I love to have my house looking pretty. I am not saying it is always spic-n-span, but I can only stand things being out of place for a short time. I become uncomfortable if there is too much clutter. We are all different, and our concept of what is clean will vary, but we must upkeep our homes because it is a part of our stewardship.

It is important to maintain friendships. My Aunt Carmen commented a couple of summers ago that every woman should find a friend before she needs a friend. If you only have one friend, let her know how much you value her friendship. Just don’t say it, SHOW it! I have an older lady named Linda in my church, and she has a hard time getting around, but she prays and sends emails to people. That is one way to encourage a friend. I am very encouraged when I find out that someone is praying for me. You should find ways to let those people who are important in your life, know it. Don’t wait until they die and then go around telling how much they meant to you. Let them hear it while they can. The kingdom of God is an investment. It involves time with God and time with others. You must be investing in someone else. Seek God for His help in showing you where you can meet a need, and when you meet that need, do not sound it aloud. Keep it private, and God will reward you in due time. Maybe you have people in your own family with whom you can begin to encourage and help. Consider yourself to be God’s flower and the other women around you as God’s flowers. When you notice that their leaves are wilting, offer some “water” because it may be that that is what they need. Depending on the level of friendship you have with them, you may be able to offer some “fertilizer” because water alone may not do. Listen, if you and I begin to water one another, not in pious religiosity, but with a genuine heart of care, the church in which you worship and the neighborhood in which you live, will bloom. We are God’s flowers women, and there is a lot to be done. Just look around you and you will see.

I want to see God’s glory in my life as well as in others. It does not happen by chance. It’s an investment. Too often we look at others who are successful and we talk about how much they have, etc., but what we fail to recognize is the hard work and investment that went into that success. It is a new year, we all have goals, and we all have the opportunity to make a difference. Whether or not you do, will be up to you. I encourage you to embrace diligence, patience, perseverance, determination, and a heart of mercy. May the Lord of all lords, the King of all kings, the God of all gods, and the One we pursue, return to find us focused on Him and investing in others. Lay up for yourself treasures in heaven, where no moths or termites can destroy them.

Encountering the Divine

I dare you to bring up a discussion about God at your next office party. I suspect that if you work in a secular marketplace, some people will immediately walk over to the cheese table to avoid the conversation. You would risk upsetting your co-workers and perhaps even your boss. People are either enamored and intrigued, or aloof and suspicious when discussion of the Divine ensues. Yet, everyone believes something about the Divine and what we believe about God affects how we treat people and the choices we make daily. Why is it that some people become encouraged and intrigued when God’s name is mentioned, while others wince or retreat in discomfort? It boils down to belief and encounter.

I first encountered the Divine as a little girl growing up on a very large farm in Jamaica. My grandparents, “Mum” and “Papa” taught me about God. They took me to church with them. I heard them pray and read the Bible aloud. They taught me to reverence and honor God. They told me that if I told lies I would go to hell (Prov 12:22 [KJV]: Lying lips are abomination to the LORD…) and they taught me to respect and obey authority (Exod 20:12: Honor your father and your mother). I am forever grateful to them for all they drilled into my sometimes-stubborn will. My mother reinforced much of what they taught me, although at the time she did not attend church regularly. I grew up with an awareness and healthy respect of God. I believed the Scriptures were true but I did not immerse myself in them until much later. What I do remember is that whenever I read the Psalms, I felt comfort and solace. I felt like God would always deliver me from the perils of evil.

However, by my freshman year of college in Connecticut, I had questions about my religious beliefs and I was hesitant to tell my family that I was not sure there was a God or that I needed to follow His principles. I was afraid they would deem me a heretic for even daring to question the existence of the Divine, let alone my desire to break away from what the church taught. I had become a skeptic and I was not sure I was a Christian or wanted to remain one. I felt Christianity was limiting because of its many prohibitions, but in hindsight, it was not the Scriptures that were limiting, as it was the many rules of the local church I attended during high school. Not to mention that over time I had seen much hypocrisy in the church and had at times fallen victim to it. I became jaded about Christians and was uncomfortable in their presence.

Thankfully, the Divine presence of God did not leave me, even when my faith sunk to its lowest. Scripture assures us that He will never ever abandon us—no, not ever (Heb 13:5)! At twenty-three, feeling strong and driving a newly purchased sports car, I felt good. Life was good. I was content because I had dreams and aspirations that I knew I would fulfill and I was pleased with my accomplishments. I remember pressing my head against my headrest and glancing up toward my open sunroof, and shouting, “God, if you are there, reveal yourself to me!” That began my second encounter with the Divine.

I am not sure how many people pursue the Divine or search for answers, but those who do are not afraid to talk about Him. God, through providential occurrences, as well as through the Scriptures, revealed Himself to me. While I cannot pinpoint any particular event that convinced me that God is real, I know that I became convinced (over time) that He is real and wanted a relationship with me.

Many Christ followers will tell you that there was a specific encounter that drew them to Him. This is the salvific encounter, and most important of all encounters, which becomes the foundation for all others. All Christians testify that God touched their heart and drew them to Him. He draws people in different ways and for many, that wooing takes place gradually. Others have defining encounters that change their life forever. Be that as it may, I am sure that Christ takes the initiative to draw people to Himself (John 6:44; 12:32). He desires for each of us to encounter Him—daily. These daily encounters are poignant in the sanctification process. They become the sandpaper and the shea butter in our Christian growth, which in the long run, cement our faith in God.

Our encounters help us recognize the alluring beauty in Jesus. The Holy Spirit residing in us speaks to us and literally leads us in every step that we take, if we are willing to follow. I often liken the Holy Spirit to a tour guide. He will take you and show you what you need to see and do. He knows the terrain. You can always decline taking the journey, but He knows the way and He always has the big picture in view—the Father’s plan for your life. He helps you to become familiar with God’s plan bit by bit. He opens your eyes to God’s ways and God’s astonishing grace. When you become aware of how wonderful and kind God is, it changes your life.

I have a type-A personality and for those familiar with the DISC personality evaluation, I am a high C and D personality. I enjoy work and I pay much attention to detail. I am not afraid to do the hard tasks and I enjoy working with people who are driven. So, I was greatly disturbed when Scripture revealed that all I had to do to be saved is simply to accept Christ’s finished work on the Cross (Rom 5:8-11; Eph 2:4-9). I wanted to earn my salvation. I did not want anything for free; I wanted to earn it. How could I take eternal life for free when Jesus gave His life for it? That part of the Gospel made me uncomfortable until I grew to accept it. The Holy Spirit began to show me just how lovely God truly is. When I spend time in God’s Word, I see that God is absolutely magnificent. When He helps me through difficult situations, I am reminded of His care and provision. You cannot come face to face with the Divine and remain the same. It changes how you view God, regardless of your relationship with your earthly father.

The Christian life is grounded in biblical truth but there is also the experiential element and you cannot divorce the two. One cannot divest herself of her experiences. Scripture solidifies our experience with God. For example, Scripture says God reigns supremely over all, but that we will all experience suffering (Ps 103:19; 1 Pet 4:19). When painful things occur that we know God could have prevented, we must still love and trust Him. When we ask the “Why” questions and there are no answers, God is still 100% in charge. We trust the Divine has a plan that we do not yet understand. He is the Word and the Word is embodied in Him. On the other hand, when His goodness fills our life, we have to thank Him and remember that Scripture says He is good. You recognize that you are unworthy, but His love for you is not based on your performance.
Christ’s love reveals your sin and leaves you humbled in His presence. The love of God breaks the iron cages around your heart and enables you to love people. Human effort cannot bring about an encounter with the Divine—they are always divinely ordained. Only God can open your eyes to Himself and when you see Him you cannot resist Him. He is irresistible. Which one of us would not gravitate toward beauty. His beauty is captivating. It breaks you and rebuilds you simultaneously. It is overwhelming and leaves you speechless, except for the praises you utter. When God encounters people they are changed forever. None can brag in His presence because only His brightness deserves recognition. Everything else pales in comparison to the radiance of our Lord. The heart melts like the sun melts snow. Beauty catches everyone’s attention and keeps it, whether it is the beauty of nature, art, or the snow-capped mountains of Colorado. God wants to capture you, every one of you.

Those people who are uncomfortable about God have not yet encountered Him or they are in the process of knowing Him. Whenever you feel conviction for the wrong you have done, God is initiating an encounter. Do not ignore the prodding of your heart. As we journey through life, we have encounters; some shape us and others change us, but all affect us. An encounter with the Divine is the most life changing and intriguing experience of my life and I would suspect, for yours also.

The Trust Factor

The Bible tells us to trust in God, to place our faith in Him, to depend and rely on Him; but what does that mean exactly, and how do we evidence trust in our life? Trust is a verb of perception. It does not refer to a concrete action; it is a verb of sense or volition. The concept of trust is not tangible, thus one must rely on perception to fully conceptualize its meaning.

The Bible, especially the Psalms, is replete with commands to trust in God. David often talks about waiting on the Lord, depending on God, and hoping in God’s loving kindness (hesed; dRsRj). The issue of trust is essential to the Christian faith because it validates that the believer has made God his hope. Trust is evidence that we believe in God’s goodness. One of the Hebrew words for trust is batach (jAfD;b) which means “to put confidence in.” It emphasizes the feeling of safety and security (TWOT, pp. 101-02). Another Hebrew word that connotes trust is aman (NAmDa), but it has a broader sense. It denotes certainty, to have faith in (as in the case of Abraham believing in God in Gen 15:6)). In English, trust and faith overlap in meaning. When we say we trust someone, we mean that we have faith and belief in the individual to do what he promises.

Every relationship requires trust in order to grow. The moment that trust begins to erode, the relationship will start to crumble. When doubt sets in, so do anxiety and fear. No wonder Jesus tells us not to be afraid. Because, when we place our trust in Him, we will not be affected by doubt, anxiety, or fear. He says, “Do not be afraid for I am with you…” (Isa 41:10). Trust is essential in our daily walk with the Lord. We must trust Him with our spouse, our children, our finances, our health, our jobs—everything! We need Him in every phase of our life, and we must trust that He knows what is best for us. Learning to trust God takes time. It does not happen overnight.

I thought I was pretty far ahead in the trust factor until some unexpected circumstances arose which I could neither control nor prevent. I began to ask myself the “what ifs.” This was dangerous because in asking the “what ifs,” I became fretful and anxious. The peace of God left my heart and I became worrisome. The word “if” is a conditional conjunction that depends on something else to happen. When we imbibe the “ifs” we immediately ascertain doubt. When we wonder if God is going to provide what we need, we inject doubt into our heart. This saddens God’s heart because we hold Him suspect. It is as if we are not sure He is reliable. Satan rejoices when we “wonder” whether God will come through for us. Indeed He will! He is not a God who lies and deceives (Num 23:19). Satan is the ultimate deceiver and we must resist him with undeterred faith in Christ.

The devil wants us to doubt God’s goodness (cf. Gen 3:1). The whisperer seeks only to create mistrust in your heart. We cannot allow our circumstances to sway our trust in the Divine. God is big and powerful, so much so that He knows our needs before we utter them. He knows them before they even manifested themselves to you. The omniscient One is aware of all that concerns us and He beckons us to trust in Him. Never doubt God’s goodness. He is always on time and His way is always best. Our best assessment is done in hindsight; the Divine uses foresight. Let us trust Him together regardless of what comes our way.

Knowing God as Deliverer

Have you ever been in a situation in which you felt trapped? What did you do? Did you panic, worry, cry out for help…? I often imagine how people who die at the hand of attackers must feel when they were cornered without anyone to help them. My heart wrenches in pain when I hear of young people whose lives are stolen from them by brutal men. Think of the students at Virginia Tech who died at the hands of a nutcase. Imagine how 19-year-old Briana Dennison must have panicked when the-still-at large rapist opened the door of the home in which she was sleeping, snatched her off the couch, and carried her off into the blackness of night. Her body was found a little over a week ago. I followed the outcome of that story as if I knew Briana. While I have never met her, my heart was touched by the injustice she endured and I long to see justice brought to her killer. These stories are morose but they are real, and we live in a world in which human life has lost its sacredness. Many are callous to the pain of human suffering, but there are still people, people like you and me, whose hearts God has touched and who allow ourselves to feel for others.
I have felt much sadness lately as I hear painful stories from people I love. My dear friend who lives in Boston has lost five family members in the space of seven months. Imagine that. The final blow came when her older sister who had been like a mother to her, was found hanging from a tree. I spoke with her recently and I could hear the pain in her voice. I felt helpless and I felt stupid for feeling uncomfortable. When the people we love hurt, we often feel uneasy because we may not know what to say or how to say what we want to say. We’re afraid that our words might come out wrong and cause unintended pain. As a result we clog up and we talk with them in “Bibleze.” Quoting the promises of Scripture is most needful but it must be done with wisdom and care. There are times when people just want you to listen and empathize.

I have empathized with several friends this year because they are in difficult financial straits and their futures seem bleak at best. My dear aunt’s life seemed to hang in the balance before she had to undergo over sixteen hours of surgery. I was scared for her. I was on pins and needles and I was anxious. I pursued God on her behalf, and I while I knew that God heard me, and the many others who called out to Him for her, I was still anxious. There are times when God decides to take good Christians home. We don’t understand it, but it happens. It doesn’t mean that they did not trust God. My friend, Jovan-Justine was a brilliant young woman who became ill and died in the prime of her life. She went to Dallas Seminary and received a Masters in Theology after completing a Ph.D. a few years earlier. She was brilliant and loved the Lord, but she died of cancer. What am I saying? Things happen that we do not understand, and we must encourage those around us the best we can while maintaining a vision of God as Deliverer.

Whether tragedy hits your life or the life of someone you know and love, God is and always will be a mighty deliverer. When you get a picture of God as deliver it changes how you view your circumstances. When you call to God He hears you. When your circumstances are beyond your ability to handle, He cares. God is a God of ability. He is a God of purpose and power. He is mighty and He is strong. His strength is not always evident in the way we expect Him to exude strength, but make no mistake—God is not wishy-washy or incapable. He is not blind and He is not deaf. He cares about you and He knows what you need before you even realize that you have that need. He knows those whose hearts are completely His.

Because we are His, we must not become consumed with anxiety over the economic uncertainly that currently pervades our nation. We live in difficult times and the cost of living has gone up. Health care costs, property taxes, food and gas prices have all increased beyond the wages we bring home. But even so, God is taking care of you and will continue to do so. Every time I talk with someone on the phone and acknowledge that “things are hard,” the Holy Spirit whispers, “but I am taking care of you.” That is the truth. I too have considered the uncertain possibilities and at different times have become downcast. I remember the question David posed to himself, and I become encouraged. “Why art thou cast down, O my soul? Hope thou in God.” God is our hope. Our hope cannot and should not be in what we have stashed away in the bank, our health insurance benefits, our assets, or our family. The truth is that we came into this world naked and broke and God has blessed us immensely. We must trust Him regardless of what our situation shows us. God is a deliverer. He delivered you from the grasp of sin and He has ordered your steps when you had no awareness of His hand in your life. Is not God faithful? Is He not good. If you knows how to care for the wild birds that fly above your head each day, then surely He will care for you and me. We must swim against the tide of anxiety and fear, and take courage because our God is an awesome God and He reigns from heaven above with justice and strength. God is your deliver and He will keep you stable and secure in the midst of any storm. Call on Him and He will answer. May He bless your heart today.

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Knowing God as Deliverer

THE VICTORIOUS CHRISTIAN WALK

What does it mean to walk victoriously? Everybody savors the mouth-watering taste of victory. We do everything we can to keep the sourness of defeat at bay, and rightly so. Triumph is delicious, especially when it comes right after hard work and self-sacrificing labor. People who have striven to succeed relish the win. Consider Michael Phelps who won eight gold medals at the last Olympic games. He made history and his name became something of a worldwide phenomenon. He became an instant success, or did he?

To those of us who had not heard his name before his world-record win, it would seem as if his success was instantaneous; but it was not. He had been practicing for years. He had spent countless hours in the pool, year after year. The water was his workplace because it was in there that he forged the stamina, gusto, and precision that catapulted him to worldwide victory in the 2008 Olympics. He would enter the not-so-warm waters of the pool before the crack of dawn while most of us were still asleep, and he would practice. Living the Christian life takes practice. It takes consistency, resiliency, humility, and utter dependence on Deity.

People often shy away from consistency when they embark on a new discipline. The newness alone often creates tension, and they struggle with the fatigue and failure that naturally ensues when one begins to engage in something new, be it a job, a hobby, or an assignment. Betterment takes practice. Anything that is not habitual will require your willingness to stay the course. You cannot gain competence at something you have only practiced a few times. Competent people work consistently in their field. They are forever finding ways to polish their skills. They don’t plateau; they always seek to become better and they weather setbacks with unflinching courage.

Perseverance is the key to triumph-in any endeavor (Luke 21:19; Rom 2:6-7; 8:25; 15:4-5). No one becomes successful overnight; and if anyone does, he should seek wise counsel because maintaining that success without the lessons learned in the arena of difficulty may make the triumph short-lived. In the Christian arena, only those who know how to get up again and again will have victory. Everyone will stumble, even with the best intentions. We do not live to sin but we sin in the process of living. As we embrace each day, we encounter things that may be very hard to endure. Hardships such as pain, rejection, misfortune, deception, deceit, and false accusations can bombard us and cause us to erect walls around our heart. We may say, “Lord, I forgive so-and-so,” and for the most part, we intend to mean it. But, every time we think of what the person did to us, fresh resentment may poke its head; or we may find that the pain resurfaces whenever we see the individual. This is an indicator that all is not well. Unforgiveness can weasel its way through the pores of your heart and steal your victory. However, with perseverance, you can climb atop the Mount Everest of unforgiveness, doubt, fear, lack, rejection, or pain that has you limping.

When we see people with physical impediments, we tend to feel sorry for them or we quickly look in the opposite direction for fear we will embarrass them should we offer them eye contact. What they would probably prefer, however, is a friendly smile. Try doing that the next time you pass someone in the mall who wobbles as he walks, or stop and say hello to the guy dripping with sweat under the blazing summer sun as he gathers wayward shopping carts in the cluttered parking lot of Wal-Mart. You will find that many of the people, whose physical appearance is marred, persevere from day to day without allowing their impediment to impede their will. We need to muster the determination to will-the will to do what needs to be done, however painstaking, day after day. It is O.K. to limp, hobble, wobble, or drag along slowly as long as that is the best you can do and you maintain victory in view.

There are two factors that constitute having and maintaining victory: you must determine to rise up every time you fall and you must learn from former mistakes so as not to repeat them. The wise person seeks to learn and grow regardless of how dismal his circumstance may appear. You grit the teeth of your heart and say, “There is no giving up, no way!” Victorious people have a warrior spirit. They know how to face the enemy and fight to the end (Eph 6:10-18). Sometimes-maybe most of the times, the biggest enemy is our flesh. Why? Ultimately, only we can control ourselves. People may do things to hurt us but how we react and the perspective we maintain in the midst of the injustice will determine how we fare. We have to resist the temptation to fight back with vengeance or to wield the sword of retaliation. We have to maintain self-control. Containing oneself is more difficult than readily doing what one wills. There are times when you may want to lash out at the offender but you choose to hold your peace. How often you may be tempted to question the incredulity of words being spoken, but you decide to be silent. Self-control is much a part of securing victory in one’s life (2 Tim 1:7; Gal 5:22-23). With the conscious decision to harness one’s will comes the need for balance. Doing what needs to be done regardless of one’s present emotional status guarantees victory. Every successful person knows that being balanced and consistent will help him maintain victory. The Christian life cannot be lived well unless you are practicing the disciplines of spiritual growth. It is the doing that bears the heavyweight title. We have to do what God says in order to have victory. We cannot take short cuts when we want to get to know God more deeply. It takes pursuing Him, loving Him, wanting Him, and knowing Him-to have victory in Him. Walking in victory is the process of sanctification. Sanctification is the process by which the Holy Spirit transforms us into the image of Christ (Rom 8:29; 12:1-2). When we are transformed we reflect God’s beauty and likeness; we become what He intended before Adam sinned in the Garden. This is why the Cross is so powerfully effective. The death and resurrection of Jesus Christ enables us to regain our beauty that had been marred by sin. His blood, being spilled out, did not stain but became a permanent bleaching agent that takes away our filth and makes us clean before God (Rev 7:14). Nothing else could give us victory (Rev 12:11). Nothing else could suffice. Nothing else could bring the joy and peace that keep us in the midst of a tumultuous world. Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has given us new birth (1 Pet 1:3). We join together and sing praises to God because we know that we are victorious in Him (Rom 15:6).

When Satan attempts to fool you into thinking you are defeated, you have only to look to the Cross (Heb 12:1-4; 1 Cor 1:18). Jesus did not die in vain. Let the Cross of Christ be in your life what God, before time, preordained it to be (Titus 1:1-3 ). Let it be the mark of redemption, justification, and sanctification (1 Cor 1:30-31).

God: The Ultimate Lover 2/9/09

When you grasp who God is-His love, His strength, His beauty, His holiness, and His mercy-you are unafraid to boldly proclaim that you are a child of His. You are bold to declare that you know Him and you will represent Him faithfully, though maybe not perfectly consistently.

You must come face to face with God in order to represent Him, because when you represent Him you will also suffer. Such suffering, though, will not deter one whose eyes have been opened to the magnanimous transcendence of the King of Glory. Who is this King of glory? He is The Lord strong and mighty. His name is Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace (Isa 9:8), and no weapon that comes against His children will take root (Isa 54:17). He lifts up those who have been trampled upon, He heals those whose lives are ransacked, and He mends those whose hurts are beyond what doctors can cure. He is all things. Everything. Complete. Supreme. His name is Grace and He wants nothing more than to have fellowship with you.

Can you imagine that God-yes Yahweh, the one who dwells in the heavens-wants to talk with you? He is so determined for you to know Him that He dispatches the Holy Spirit to capture your heart (Rom 5:5). Left to your own devices you would not give Him a second look. He knows that, so He always takes the initiative. He saw you before you ever were, and when you felt you were alone, He was right there. His all-seeing eyes were never off you, not even for a second. When your heart was made tender you responded to Him and He smiled. He placed His hand out toward you and drew you to Himself, the way a husband reaches out and takes his bride at the altar. Only, when God takes you, it is for eternity. He loses none that He takes. His grasp is firm and secure. Jesus said, “…no one whom the Father gives to me will I lose” (John 6:39)

Each day He seeks to direct you, guide you, open doors for you, protect and shield you from the snares of the enemy. When you listen to Him and follow His guidance you find sweet bliss. There is peace in His presence, joy in His fellowship, and hope in His future promises. You lack nothing because you have everything when you have Him. His pursuit is gentle but persistent. His Son died for you so He is determined to free you from death. Sin brings death but Christ brings life. God is light and His Son gives life to all who call upon His name. If you are lonely, call. Sad. Call. Happy. Call. Never stop calling. Should you feel yourself unreachable and your situation unfathomably dark, call. God hears the faintest cry. He holds even the most feeble hand. He is not a bigot and He is not duplicitous. He loves all people-yes, all. He takes you as you are but changes you to become like Him. His love never changes but the way He expresses it will always blow your mind. You will never completely figure Him out. He is too large, too wide, too deep for your mind to fully comprehend. He is breathtakingly beautiful and He loves you.

Dear Lord, we thank you for being so close to us. We feel you as we walk, as we talk, as we pray. Your closeness brings peace. We do not take it lightly for many have never felt your closeness the way we have. We are blessed to know you and we want only to become like you. Chisel us until we are refined. Jesus, when you showcase us before the Father, we want to come forth as pure gold. Keep us from falling Lord, as we await your presentation of us before your Father on that Great Day. Oh Lord, may not the world hold us in its grasp. May we swim against the wave of ingratitude, murmuring, apathy, and unkindness. Help us to consider others better than ourselves and to live our lives in a giving way. In Your sweet name we pray. Thank you Lord Jesus, Amen.

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